I thought i'd grow out my hair to see if you'd notice
and i'd start dressing nice
to make you believe that i'm alright
and i'd start playing sports to be more like my brother
and my dad might be proud for once in his life
or maybe i'll drink myself to sleep because that's what i'm used to
and when i wake up i'll feel brand new
i'll start tanning my skin, to be more like my mother.
beccause i am a ghost in size small clothes
and i guess I could use some color.
maybe i'll smile, just like my ex girlfriends
because they can feel love
but i cant' feel anything
so i thought i'd write you this song so you could get noticed
you could sing it along with your friends
in the back of their mercedes-benz
while me and my volvo will be fine
maybe i'll close my eyes to feel more like myself
Track Name: Smooth Jazz
there's not a thing that i could say
to stop your blue eyes from fading to grey
so all the blood will rush to my head
and pour out of myself
am i invisible now,
to a friend in a hospital gown.
i'll still call your phone
to hear your voice.
i learned a lot about death before i grew up.
i watched you begin to fade when i was 18.
i told myself that i would be okay.
you told yourself your biggest fear was waking up each day.
so when i wake up in the morning,
on top of blankets, fully clothed,
i'll tare deaths fingers from my throat,
to remind me that i'll never be alone.